I have no idea why are you treat me as like that, I felt that I'm just a stupid to you, why am I treating all of you so good? I admit I didn't treat all of you very bad isn't it? Feeling so sad. I hate this kind of feeling, I have no idea what I did. I tried to join you all to undertand what's happening. But I do not seem to be welcome. It's always happening. Yeah. I felt that I can't join all of you, I can't join the conversation. Therefore I give up. And yes, someone told me that you hate me. It's fine. I don't think that I did anything wrong. I'm just doing myself. I didn't talk much today just because I don't know what can I say, I can talk with who, seems you don't want to ignore me. I got that kind of feeling, I found that from your eyes. Therefore I do not talk much. Is it consider as a mistake? I don't know.

I always have to care about all of you, but who really care about me? Feeling so tired to act as a friend.


Maybe there's friends can't be forever. No one will treat you well. I have to always remind myself.